People are always telling you that you have to learn to let go. The truth is it’s an impossible task to learn. Telling someone to learn to let go is like telling someone to learn to fly. Letting go happens on its own. Sometimes it takes is sweet old time, and other times it happens in the snap of a finger. It’s not a learned process or behavior. It’s not something you can choose to really do. And if you can choose to do then you weren’t really holding on to begin with. If letting go were so easy, if it was something that you are in control of, then none of those suffering from a loss, from heartbreak, from misfortune, would ever experience the pain and hurt that they do. It’s kind of a lot like Love. You can’t learn to love. You can’t choose to fall in Love. You have let it happen, just like letting go. So when you have something in your life that you’re holding on to, prepare yourself for the time it’s going to take to let go of it, even when it’s already gone. Know that it’s going to hurt, probably more than anything you’ve imagine. If it is meant to be let go of, it will on its own time. Even when you do let go, know that whatever it was…it was worth it. Because anything you involuntarily choose to hold and let go of is a genuine thing your heart and mind once desired.
When he quotes the lyrics of a song and lacks the quotation marks, I pretend they are his own words and they are meant for me. When I see his number on my caller ID, my stomach gets consumed by butterflies. When he asks me how I am doing, I fight the urge to reply with “amazing because I am talking to you”. When talks about other girls I put on my brave face and pretend my heart isn’t losing its blood supply. When I think about him, I start realizing I am falling in love.
Whenever disappointment arose the answer was ”It’s Becker College”. Are the dinner rolls hard enough to be a weapon? It’s Becker College. Can’t connect to the internet? It’s Becker College. Furniture being thrown out of the window? It’s Becker College. Being charged for a “t.v. removal fee?” It’s Becker College. You get the picture.
Of course there are flaws within the school. But flaw are often occupied by some kind of advantage. And yes, even Becker has some plus-sides.
Thank you Becker for the following:
Enabling me to become to honor student.
Letting me come to realization that I am passionate about Writing.
Introducing me to some of the greatest people.
Forming amazing friendships.
Opening my eyes to the good and bad sides of Love.
Making me not loathe Biology, as a subject.
Now I wish not to thank you for:
Allowing unintelligent males to continue to inhabit my living corridors.
Charging me with completely absurd fines.
Contributing to the resurfacing of my smoking habit.
They say take the path less traveled by. Live life spontaneously. Do something because you haven’t done it before. Take chances, even if the outcome has a chance to be negative. Right now is my time to live and learn. To grow and change. To hurt and be hurt. To experience and regret. To say yes and say no. Good afternoon, Summer 2011. I look forward to you.